…..i don’t even know what i’m doing.
anyone care to tell me the rules and shit?

but along with the bad news, also came with good news so as of right now, focusing on the good news has kept me positive throughout the weekend.

as for my eating and exercising since last Tuesday has gone down the drain! mainly because of tiredness. i know its no excuse, i’m not even going to try and convince myself that my excuses are valid.

so tonight, i getting my arse down to the gym and i’m going to work my arse off between now until Saturday when the gym closes for Christmas. even if it means i have to train both morning and evening. i will be going on loads of walks/runs until the gym opens again.

college is over for the Christmas and lie in’s still haven’t been done. i’ve had to get up early for work and it kinda did kill me. one cannot complain!

i downloaded MFP to keep me back on track with my eating. for the past week i’ve either eaten a whole selection box or a take-away. i would rather enjoy those foods knowing i deserve them. i ate them out of laziness…..

this is my lesson learned…..

lack of motivation means more determination!

is the lazy way out.

exercise, eat healthy and enjoy the process of your body changing. enjoy trying new exercises and enjoy trying new foods.

this whole liposuction idea is ridiculous. after you get liposuction, you have to still exercise to maintain the “new body” so really, you’ve just skipped months of hard work just to risk your life.

some people amaze me with their stupidity.

be someone’s inspiration!

tomorrow will be the start of the next 60 days of tears, sweat and pain! bring in on!

i made a calender which has the next 60 days and i will be marking off each day (picture shall be up soon). i have also added in certain events that will be popping up over the 60 days in which i can try and give myself goals to reach. i wanted to make the challenge fun, exciting and worth it and i felt by making this calender, the challenge wont seem as daunting.

excited! 

happy sunday :) 

i’m so proud of myself. at first i taught the walk walk going to take me over an hour and a half because it is pretty far out from where i live but actually, it took me an hour and 15 minutes. not bad, eh? thankfully i brought my runners with me because there was no way in hell would i of been able to complete that walk in my college shoes! next time, i will try and do it in an hour and 10 minutes and hopefully i’ll try to build myself up to do it quicker than that :) it was a great walk though. it cleared my head and you can’t beat the view but i was pretty wreaked when i got home. 

happy tuesday guys :)

halloween is slowly creeping up and i have no clue what i am doing, where i am going, what i am dressing up as etc. what are your plans? :) 

xox

Anonymous asked: i went on a walk today and i ended up trying to run. i ran for a song and a half and was so exhausted. i sprinted home cause it was getting dark and it was only like 4.5 minutes of running and i was exhausted and panting so hard i feel so disgusting/fat/ugly and college is starting soon i want to look and feel better quickly:(

i am so sorry for the extremely late reply. due to stupid laptop being an idiot, i had no way of replying :( 

when i started running i done exactly what you done and started again the next day, excepted i made myself do it a minute longer and before i knew it, i was jogging without a bother on me. it takes practice and determination. if you tell yourself you are going to run for an extra minute each day, you WILL do it. you CAN do it. i understand when it’s dark out, the last thing on your mind is running and seeing as it is nearing winter time, it’s going to get dark a lot quicker so why not try another alternative? running for extra longer on the days you have no college or try walking an extra mile or minute home from college. the more you walk/run, the more it is a benefit to YOURSELF and i also find if i exercise before studying, i am more alert. that’s my opinion anyways haha. i know other people who exercise after studying because once they get home, they fall asleep haha. 

i am starting college myself and i know how terrified you are but all i can say to both you and myself, fitness can be fitted in during the day if YOU can let it. if you are tired and you genuinely feel you can’t exercise, DO IT! we will thank ourselves later. why don’t you try and join a sports club in college? i did and it’s made me feel so much better about being fit during college, all i have to do in college now is eat healthy and enjoy my courses. you can do the same :)

i believe in you :)

please message me on any updates/progresses :) 

guys just stare at me like i’ve just killed someone. the guy on the treadmill beside me was trying desperately to find my boobs. since losing weight, i have no boobs so there was no way he was going to find them. they just constantly stare. i left the gym fuming because i felt so uncomfortable. words might have to be said :s

laptop is still being off to be repaired and i am so lost without it. the tumblr app is only decent if i am just looking on my dash but when it comes to posting things, it’s rubbish.

i miss all my followers. i have been losing some in the last week probably due to them thinking my page is inactive. their loss.

i hope all is keeping well :) xox

it will make dinners more quicker to make rather than standing in the kitchen for ages trying to find something to make. each day has a diffrent meal and all healthy and i also included one desert day which mainly consists of a fruit cake or something along the lines of healthyness haha.

I was too tired for bootcamp this morning but i made it up by doing a Davina McCall workout and boy was it worth it! i feel so freshed and awake. ill be adding her routines more often. i also worked my ass off cleaning the house so more workouts were done today.

i hope all is having a lovely day/night. keep smiling and keep trying. every step is closer to where you want to be.

hello to my lovely new follwers :)

Xox